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rest in peace

Estell — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 11:37:55 +0000

I’ve spent a good long time here in technicolor-dreams.org. Days where I’d share my days and memories and random thoughts. My greatest fear would be forgetting those memories. To honest, I never saw this day would come that I would grow out of this whole blogging thing. At least publicly. And so, I’ve decided to keep things a little more private. Maybe I’ll be back again in the blogoshere. Maybe soon, maybe later. As for now, I’ve made my mind that I’ll take a rest and keep thing to myself. Thank you for reading my stories and being with me through those dark days I had. Thank you to my host, ate Viel, for hosting me and being so understanding regarding this issue. Thanksalot!

Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you

Estell — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 02:12:46 +0000

First week of sem break’s over. And now, we’ve only got 2 weeks to spend, cherish and enjoy. Haha. I have nothing much to say. But let pictures do the talking this time. Basically, all I can say is that lagi akong wala sa bahay. SOBRA. It’s becoming an issue here at home again. HAHA!

Anyway, minsan lang magkasem break noh. Kaya dapat ng lubus-lubusin. ;P I have a list on my cork board on how to spend for this blessed break. It doesn’t look bad, having a couple of checks here and there.

This is getting so random now, but I really wanna rant that MY SITE NEEDS A NEW LAYOUT NOW. And I don’t have much time to work on that. Too bad, surreal. I get this feeling sometimes that I think I should move to blogger na lang ulit. Since I find it hard to update and keep this site as active as possible. GAAAH. Being an art student isn’t easy as most of you might think. I’m blaming this feeling on my current layout. I want a two-column layout so I’ll have that blogging feel back again.

I think I have a lot of things to share but I don’t know where to start. I don’t want things to be so random here either so I’ll just leave you with a video. This one’s taken from our songfest back our Senior year in St. Paul, Pasig. It just really makes me proud of my school. And my batchmates of course. Sila ung winning class sa competition na yan. Ang sarap iparinig sa buong bayan. Alam mo ung feeling na mahahatak nya ung bansa? Hahahaha! But seriously, EVERY SINGLE TIME I HEAR THIS SONG IT JUST GIVES ME GOOSEBUMPS ALL OVER. And that rarely happens to me. ;) Kindly listen to it and tell me what you think.

4-3 Songfest Bayan Ko

feel so good

Estell — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 00:03:23 +0000

Oh our hearts beating faster, faster.

As if out of control and we can only wonder

Of a time our only care is how late are we gonna stay

Or if we would even sleep at all.

Can you feel the sembreak spirit? :D I’ve been waiting for this for GOD knows how long. Sobrang toxic sa college! And to think it’s just the first sem of my first year in college. And I’m not exactly sure yet if I survived my first sem grade-wise.

But right now, let’s not think of those things because we’re on SEM BREAK! And you just gotta love that, like it or not.

So, how did I spend the first day of my semestral break? I cried. Yeah. Do I have to apologize for feeling horrible yesterday? I guess not. It continued through out much of today. I snuggled in my sweet little room right after lunch, tried to get some of the pain out and snooze all the way till 9pm. How’s that? Not bad, after having the last taste of sleepless nights for the first sem just last week. Seriously sleepless, honey. No, not even an hour.

I headed to Shang right after submitting my compilation for Design and Color and taking that written exam I’m sure to flunk. Decy was supposed to follow in Shang but she wasn’t able to. Caesar (childhood friend) and I were also supposed to meet up. But my phone failed me. It died on me! Ayun ded batt. Buti na lang nagkita kami ni Thea. Kasama nya pa si Ethel so ayun, lakad-lakad. Then eventually kami na lang ni Thea ang nagbonding. IT’S SO NICE TO CATCH UP WITH OLD FRIENDS. I really missed Thea. Hirap kasi CSB sya tas Sun sya Globe na kami.. Ayun.

Anyway, Ate Tric really touched me with her comment sa multiply ko. Grabe, buti pa sya na hindi ko naman kaclose kinumusta ko. Samantalang ang feeling ko nun super lonely. As in, never felt so lonely ever. Tas wala sa mga kaclose ko ang nagtetext jan. Alam nyo un? Ok fine, maybe I should have texted them na hey, me prob ako or whatever. But still, iba ung feel kapag nafeel lang nila na you’re not ok. Di ba? Anyway, drama’s over. Thanks to Mabs, Bea, Dags and Caesar and Mia as well. I’m feeling so much better now.

*I dunno bat hindi napost to nung isang araw. Anyway, this was written Oct. 12, 2008.

A DISTURBING LSS

Estell — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 14:38:27 +0000

It’s just reverberating in my mind and I just have to blurt this out because it’s disturbing me for real to the point I’m having this NEED to tell you about it when I still haven’t done anything for that English project and haven’t studied a thing for tomorrow’s FINALS.

So what’s the song? It’s from Katy Perry. No, it’s not I kissed a girl. I’m so over that and it’s message. :P It’s “THINKING OF YOU” and I must say you have to hear this song plus see it’s video. Pardon me if you’re very much familiar of it but hey our TV can’t support some of the channels in our cable because of old age. :| I know, right? I learned this song from Saab Magalona through her blog. And I loved it ever since but it’s turning to something more than that. It’s really a song I’m embracing so much right now. Which is quite evident here.

Sorry if I can’t bloghop right now and return comments. Finals. Ok, patapusin lang naten to.

Sinking into a hot tub as the cold water run down my face

Estell — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 07:30:17 +0000

Oh yes, our DSL’s back. I’m really sorry for not being able to update for the longest time ever. Nagkaprob kasi sa dsl namin for a week. Damn that. Grabe antagal nun. Two days are way too long enough and one week? But yes, everything’s good and so much better now. Oh yeah.I guess I’m walking on a smoother road now or at least I’ve learned how to dance under this rain. It feels good to know that there would always be friends who will stay with you through your ups and downs. And that despite the fact that you don’t feel you belong, there would be those people who you know you belong with. And you would know then that they’re the ones who own you because they’ve got your heart and you’ve got theirs. I love you kapwets! I can’t imagine living life without you guys!

Yesterday night, we went off to Aila’s place. She’s in for a visit from Japan. Dun sya nag-aaral, sosyal eh sori naman. The last time we saw each other was I think around May or early June. Tagal na grabe! Ansarap ng feeling na parang alam mo yun, nun lang ulit kayo nagkita at nagkasama tas wala lang. Parang despite the distance and all, walang ganong pagbabago. I missed her more. Nakakasad nga mga kwento nya how her mom misses her daw according to the people inside their house eh. I remember the time we went to her place to give her a surprise as a despedida gift. Ganun na pala katagal yun.

And it means the sem is nearly over at the same time. Which only means one thing: FINALS na. Gosh. I’m dreading this thing. Sa math, I think I have to retake that on summer. Haha. Parang andaming babagsak dun. Pati sa Design and Color(DC). I got a NFI for a plate equivalent to 3 plates. Not Following Instructions. What part you ask? The title block. I know, right? Haha. And ANATOMY! I don’t think I’ll ever get this right within the year. I need some time to hone my drawings skills mehn. As in. I stopped drawing back in grade 5. Er. I will survive! :P

I should go now. It’s fun to update this blog with a refreshing post. Haha. Puro problema kasi talaga nung mga nakaraan. Pasensya na ha? :) I still have to work on my plates. They’re screaming at me right now. Haha!

PS: What do think of my new layout? :) I don’t have time to make a digital art so I made use of an illustration I got from some site waaaaay back I don’t remember the site anymore. :|